The Valentine’s Day Breathwork Ceremony I facilitated was so wonderful. The space was full, we had fun, I was in the flow and there were many profound experiences shared afterwards. It feels so good to hold space for a playful, transformational experience.
Yet there was a sinking feeling afterwards. Almost like I’m not allowed to have that much fun and receive payment.
On this journey of entrepreneurship tons of self-worth issues are coming up. Am I good enough? Can I do this? Can I make a living running my own business?
I know intellectually… Yes I can. But self-worth issues keep showing up.
I realize as a facilitator I must continue my Breathwork journey so I can continue to reap the benefits of peeling back the layers of protection I have accumulated. All of the fears and self-worth issues that are coming up are just ways my old self is trying to keep me safe by playing small.
Starting a business is similar to Breathwork. You are embarking into the unknown. You don’t know what’s going to come up but you can be sure that there will be lessons learned and growth along the way.
I believe so strongly in the power of Breathwork and it’s time for me to really put it to the test. I’m going to go for it and see what this work can do over a period of 30-days. I’m committing to one-hour of Breathwork and 30-minutes of Journaling every day for the next 30-days.
Yikes! I can come up with so many reasons why this will be nearly impossible and so many excuses as to why I can’t do it… But I’m doing it and I’m going to be accountable by posting about my experience.
So here goes…
Day 1-7 recap:
I had a hard time getting into a rhythm at the beginning. It was really hard for me to take a deep inhale and my exhales were really quick. And after a few days I’m already noticing more ease with my breathing. It was really nice doing this practice again. It’s been a couple months since I have and I definitely have felt blissed out after.
One fear that came up in session one was “what if I can’t go very deep in this 30 days and that proves that I’m unable to assist others to go deep.” When that thought arose I noticed it and then told myself I love myself. Normally I would get mad for thinking that and try to push the fear away. It felt good to recognize my fear and just acknowledge it without judgement.
I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to go very deep on my own. Whelp on day three that fear was eliminated. I experienced a deep understanding of my self-worth issues. I was able to feel it and release it with a quick cry. Then I spent 10 minutes holding and rocking myself and telling myself how much I love myself. I was talking to my inner child and telling her how wonderful.. and funny and fun to be with… she is.
That felt like a special gift. Breathwork really is a self-love and self-care practice. That is why I love facilitating this work!
I’m also experiencing a lot of creative ideas coming to me each day during and after my Breathwork sessions. I’m feeling creative and more motivated to put myself out there and grow my business.
I’m excited to see where the next 21 days takes me. I’m open to all possibilities and will accept that my experience is exactly what I need. Aho!
